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Sad, true. Good night.

An adjustment and.... some frozen yogurt !!

Sooooooooooooooooo.... its been a short while since my last post. While Im in a debbie downer mood this evening, this will not be a debbie downer post :) !

First things first, I did not get in touch with Dr.G yet, I've had a lot on my plate but plan on getting in touch with him this week. But I did get in touch with my dental insurance and will try to get my consult with them reimbursed.

Second, I had an adjustment last week with my ortho... I popped in 10 minutes early (one of my goals is to be early instead of chronically late lol )... I get in and Dr.L isnt in the best of moods, who knows whats going on :/, but its been 5 months since I had my braces popped on and no molds of my teeth had been taken. Dr.G clearly states he wanted molds at month 3-6-9 etc to plan surgery and to see how the teeth are moving... So at first I approach his assistant, sweet gal,"Am I getting my molds done with the new wire or old"... she was like "Why do you need molds?"... (continue my long explanation)... Dr. L interjects oh you got a long way before your ready for surgery, when are you seeing Dr.G... I said "Yes, I understand Im many months away but these molds need to happen so I can plan the next 7-8-9 months of my life"... After much push and shove he agreed to finally get bite impressions and molds taken. He was not happy, I was. He's like come back in 10 weeks.... I just stared at him :O, he should have said 10 months... Trying to stay positive Im like "8 weeks... :)" .... he's like "No, 10"... I scheduled for 9. lol

Anyways he put this THICK flipping wire, its been a week, and wow mighty mighty tender. Im not a fan of drugs, so I only took 400mg of Ibuprofen during the worst of it... I noticed my right side was quick to jump back and be fine, the left another story.

Im growing frustrated with how slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww this process is taking. It might as well be the Ice Age and watching glaciers move mm every month.

Third I got a call from Dr.G's office saying they were contacted by Dr.L's office about the molds and they clarified why they needed them and such. (YAY!!)... Now I need to get back with them and see if I can get in touch w/ Dr.G.


I've arrived to the conclusion this evening that I do have image issues. Im not happy with my current jaw/facial balance, and I hold a lot of resentment towards it. In the meantime, I've realized my DEEP attachment to my face, and scared that by fixing one thing we'll make 10 things worse. I dont want to look like someone different unless you're going to make me look like Adrianna Lima or Megan Fox as an example. lol.

I crossed upon this article tonight written by Dr.G, discussing the role of jaw surgery and how beauty is measured.
http://www.orthodonticproductsonline.com/issues/articles/2009-09_07.asp

Im reallllllllly looking forward to going home (Chicago) in 10 days, I need a break from Arizona and figure out some nuts and bolts.

Pictures soon. <3

Uncertainty about my jaw + surgeon.

My mind will NOT shut up and I cant stop thinking about jaw stuff I need help hahaha...

So my main issue, the main unresolved issue is I do not feel comfortable about the proposed jaw movement my potential surgeon Dr.G has recommended. I have bugged Terra to death about this hahaha, but I really need to get this off my mind. The reason I question him and this proposed jaw movement is for 3 reasons
1- I've been following numerous cases online, many with overbites and gummy smiles FAR worse than mine with less movement and they look like themselves but better.
2- His proposed 15 mm lower jaw movement is the most significant of any surgeon I have consulted with and the procedure seems the most invasive. If I am impacting the upper jaw 5mm my lower jaw will auto rotate and out to meet it so it should be less.
3- The digital imaging he offered me was so hideous, that I still am having issues about doing this surgery.

I am not sure what to do at this point, should I call him and be like I dont like your proposed movement, or Im unsure if this is right... He seems like a great guy and he does some of the most complicated and advanced surgeries in the country so I know he's good. Am I being stupid fixating on something as small as mm's ?

Something in my gut is telling me I need to talk about this and come to some kind of a resolve or move on.

Jaw Surgery- genetic link?

I've been quietly thinking about the genetic link about who is responsible for our jaws and if it really skips a generation...

My mom, dad and brother do not have jaw issues. My granny from my dads side had an overbite and jaw issues. My cousins from my dads side - link to my granny, two them (both girls) have jaw issues, one had most of it corrected with headgear and the other is trying to correct with braces...

Have you taken a look at your family and seen who has jaw issues and who you got it from, does it really skip a generation?

Would be interesting to know.

photo update, gross...

I hate these photos, yuck.

Panorama view fun, you can see my two (and only) impacted wisdom teeth! Half as wise baby lol, and I need to get them taken out pronto!

Teeth on 8/2011My bite before, where are my lower teeths? My ortho Dr.L mentioned that my teeth did what they could to compensate for my jaws and angle inward. I think its kind of cute,
My Teeth 2/2012

This process is so painfully slow, and in my convos with fellow jaw peeps, it feels like forever, and the extensive time makes you do all the 'what ifs' in the book.

I hope your all well.

Wow get your jaw fixed in 10 days???

I just saw this video on youtube was was like :O!!! Not fair... but take a look.

Jaw Surgery in 10 days?!
I think its pretty amazing, I wonder what will become of this procedure and if it can apply to underbites and open bites etc... I also wonder if the results are permanent, and no relapse issues since the jaw is still growing for several years....

Interesting.

Ortho appointment today! :/

I think my new favorite face is :/ I think I should have that permanently plastered.
This is how I envision myself every time I look in the mirror, hotness right?

Moving on, I met with my Ortho today appointment at 2, got there at 2:10 yes I was late, but boy did I end up paying for it later. His office was packed and little children running around screaming their lungs out... After having a tough night with very little sleep (nightmares + migraine) I wanted to clobber these little children and plaster their butts to the chairs... and do other terrible things, its like seriously where what wild farm were they raised on?

Anyhow I get in 45 minutes later to see him, they take out my wires, I get to brush my teeth ahhhh and floss and mouthwash and it felt so nice not having any wires in. Anyhow I ask him about getting molds of my teeth taken and Dr.L as I'll refer to my ortho, says there is no point your teeth will be moving even further in the next few days... Im like agreed but the surgeon wanted them so he can predict WHEN I might be ready for surgery.... he still was adamant about not doing them. Im at 4 months with braces, and my surgeon wants to see my progress to start planning.... here we go :/ so anyways Im like fine the next time and he agreed. So we try to get in this thicker wire, after much shoving the upper wire goes on fine... Lets try with the lower jaw, after much shoving and attempting to get the wire in, one of my brackets pops off !! Im like phew, Im glad its not my tooth, and so they shave off the glue and rebond the bracket and wait a few minutes and try again with more force.... a few minutes later 2 brackets pop off, i laugh a little but in my head Im like seriously, TEETH GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER! He ends up putting me on this 'intermediary' wire and I come back in 6 weeks for the thicker wire. fuck.

Already I feel Im behind schedule, so in April hopefully things might be a bit clearer. This process is filled with surprises, even the little things like an appointment, shit happens. I think this whole brace/jaw surgery process should be called "shit happens, keep your cool"...

So my teeth feel "tight", and after seeing the ortho I call my mom and she's like I have a feeling you wont be ready till maybe Dec-Jan of this year for surgery... I dont know if its shark week, or the fact that I want this done as QUICKLY as possible I just snapped at her... She didnt understand how badly I want this chapter of my life to be over, how much I want to be 'normal' and to start my life. I may very well be delusional and keeping my life on hold till I figure it out, but just hearing her sent me off the deep end... not good :/ :/ :/

My ortho has my brace removal date for 5/28/2013. If there is anything PLEASE let that be the date that Im done....

I'll post some very sexy (not) photos tomorrow of my bite in progress...